UPDATE 5/18/16

[Halaster Blackcloak]

I breathed a sigh of relief that felt like an elephant stepped off my back! It's funny, because when I criticize Obama or the evil Clintons, people always throw Bush in my face until I tell them I'm not a Democrat or a Republican - I'm a strict Constitutionalist, so I joined the Constitution Party. I tell them I can criticize Bush just plenty. So then they accuse me of being a racist because I despise Obama and his insanity, at which point they throw the expected race card at me. That's when I floor them by telling them I have voted for and would again happily vote for Alan Keyes, and that Ben Carson would have gotten my vote. At which point they just start babbling incoherently in an attempt to avoid actual debate. It's actually kinda funny to watch!

What absolutely cracks me up is the hypocrisy. People on the left were hyperventilating because Trump would not preemptively concede to a hypothetical outcome of the race, but when Hillary refused to come out and concede the actual outcome on election night, that was ok. Of course, maybe that was because she collapsed into inconsolable crying and screeching that lasted until 6AM or later, according to someone who was there. Still, it breaks tradition.

And of course, they were predicting riots and protests and violence if Trump lost, only to become the perpetrators of violence themselves and idiotic street-blocking protests. Always hypocrisy. Always doing what they accuse others of doing. Savage is right, liberalism is a mental illness. It's a sort of delusional state exacerbated by a lack of ability to accept reality.

[Beowulf]

Conservatism seems to be a mental illness, too. They seem to care way too much what other people are smoking or doing in their bedrooms. I'm an independent that registered Dem so I could vote for Bernie in the primaries. With him getting robbed at the DNC I really didn't care who won between the other two clowns. With HilClin we would get more wars and the rich getting richer while the poor get poorer. With Trump it might look like The Walking Dead or This Is The End pretty soon.

Oh well, at least Trump probably won't send his Brownshirts after my guns.

[Halaster Blackcloak]

Thing is, with the exception of the hyper-religious so-called "conservatives", true conservatives are probably the most mentally stable and realistic of all the various ideologies. Over the years I've been able to boil it all down to one single damning factor that determines the level of mental illness of an ideology. The further away from accepting reality an ideology is, the more mentally ill it is. Liberalism (now "progressive-ism") is by far the most insane of the ideologies. There's a term for that type of thinking in psychology - "delusional". A delusion is defined as "a persistent belief held with strong conviction despite superior evidence to the contrary". So for example, someone claims the sun rises in the north. We take them outside at sunrise, look towards that ball of fire rising over the horizon, point the compass and say "See, the sun rises in the east". We do this day after day after day, and yet the delusional person insists the sun does indeed rise in the north. It's a horrible, pathetic, and destructive form of mental illness.

And this is what we see on the left. Anyone who does not agree with them is racist, homophobic, Islamophic, evil, etc. Look at who's causing the violence now after the election. People on the left. Hillary supporters who have been "triggered" by losing the election and who exit their "safe spaces" only when they engage in "peaceful protests" - you know, attacking Trump supporters, engaging in vandalism, rioting, blocking traffic, making false accusations, calling for ISIS to behead and rape Melania Trump - these liberals are not only fucking delusional, they're unstable, violent, and maniacal. I don't recall seeing thousands of Conservatives rioting in the streets night after night after Obama won. Twitter is exploding with death threats. Go to www.thegatewaypundit.com and look at some of the news that CNN and other stations ignore. If it were up to me, they'd be rounded up and sent to institutions for the criminally insane. This is not normal, sane human behavior. I (and others) often refer to them as idiots, but that's not really fair. They truly are suffering from severe mental illness and need treatment - forcible treatment if necessary. When you have people making videos and screeching like banshees saying "I swear to god I'm going to fucking ill myself" because their candidate didn't win, well...that's mental illness. When people call for others to be assassinated and raped and beheaded because those others don't agree with their delusions, well...that's not just mental illness. That's criminally insane behavior. They'd really be losing it if I ever got elected. I'd make Trump look like Mother Theresa.

I've debated so many people on how owned the mainstream media is. I could spend days, not hours, but days (even weeks!) lecturing on and showing examples of the media bias, propaganda (using actual Nazi and communist methods), psy-ops and other dirty tricks the news media used to destroy Trump and to hide all the dirt on Hillary. When you're trained to spot specific behavior, it becomes as obvious as sunrise.

It's delusional behavior for anyone to believe that socialism/communism works, because it has never worked anywhere, in any way, for any nation at any time anywhere on earth in all of human history. People always mention the Scandinavian countries, but when the facts are checked, even those nations were doing better before they became socialist. And it's a very different set of circumstances there.

It's delusional for anyone to believe that it's ok to let illegal aliens march into the country and demand rights and freedoms and jobs, while so many are bringing in crime and problems. A Pew study and a Center for Immigration study showed that illegal aliens have higher rates of teen pregnancy, higher rates of substance abuse, higher rates of unwed mothers, higher rates of domestic violence, higher incarceration rates, higher school drop out rates, etc, etc than the native born and legal immigrant populations.

It's delusional to believe that all cultures and nations are equal when in America gays and women have rights and equal opportunities and are protected while in Muslim countries women are oppressed, blamed (and often executed) for being raped, and gays are hung/stoned/thrown off tall buildings. It is delusional to call the single most violent religion on the planet (Islam) the "religion of peace" when that single religion accounts for more than 90% of all acts of terrorism while every other religion and belief system (including Satanism - the worship of the devil himself) combined accounts for only 10% of all terrorism and when that single religion accounts for one side of participation in virtually every conflict that's occurring on the planet. More people are killed in the name of Allah/Mohammed than in the name of all other religious/historical figures, religions, and ideologies combined on the entire planet.

The problem is people are ignorant - in the original sense of the word, i.e. "a state of being uninformed or unaware of facts". I tell people, turn off CNN and got to WND.com, Brietbart news, Gateway Pundit, Drudge Report, Conservative Treehouse and other honest news sources. Dig for the facts, dig for truth.

The mainstream media right up until election day was claiming Trump threw a baby out of one of his rallies this past summer. Didn't happen. They interviewed the woman - she was leaving because the baby was crying and Trump was saying "It's ok, I love babies, you can stay, it's ok". You can watch the video live. Eventually the baby cried more and the woman was leaving and Trump jolingly said "Ok get that baby out of here. Just kidding. Love babies. He's got a great voice". The woman laughed, and said she was definitely voting for Trump and that the media was lying. Won't see that on CNN! No, just lies. All those lying women who claimed Trump sexually assaulted them - all I had to do was apply behavioral analysis and some basic interrogation analysis (as best can be done when the subject is being interviewed by a biased, sympathetic interviewer and one is only watching the "interrogation") and immediately I knew they were lying. Sure enough, the facts came out - they were full of shit. They lied. Witnesses to dispute them, holes in their stories large enough to fly Trump's jet through, and tons of inconsistencies.

And then all this idiotic bullshit about Trump starting World War III. Please. Hillary is the one who wants to enforce a no-fly zone in Syria while we back ISIS and who said live on tv that she would shoot down a Russian fighter plane, which is of course an act of war. Trump has already stabilized relations with Russia, and he's not even in office yet!

So really, there is reality and there is delusion. I make all my decisions based on reality, not delusion. Personal feelings don't matter. It's funny, when I rip apart Obama for all his crimes and deceit, people immediately start bashing Bush. Then I tell them I hated Bush and that I am neither a Democrat nor a Republican but rather a strict constitutionalist and a member of the Constitution Party. They immediately toss out the race card and accuse me of being racist, which is the fun [art because I tell them I've voted for Alan Keyes and was rooting for and would have voted for Ben Carson above the others. That always creates a look of panic before they start struggling with the fact that now the debate is about facts and not ideology or bias. Makes people crazy, let me tell you!

[McDeath]

WHEW!!! Yesterday I got this huge error the site was down and domain was nigh lost. Contact administrator etc... Glad its back up.

[Halaster Blackcloak]

Ah, yes. The idiots at Hostmonster never sent me the billing for web hosting and it expired at midnight but they take everything down a few hours earlier. Always making a mess of things for me. My email went down but I didn't realize the site went down as well. We're good!

[McDeath]

Cool. How much they charge you monthly for add-free site?

[Halaster Blackcloak]

I forget. For web-hosting, it's like $16 a month with unlimited email and bandwidth, but you get a number of free sub-domains.

[McDeath]

New update for me......
My Ma and Pa went insane again. I’ve been evicted from the property and tossed away ...... again. I guess I will be going to Georgia tomorrow to be with my brother.

Tbh, I’m very tired of this. I haven’t wanted death for self so bad. I lost everything again. My plans, my gymn I built, my routines, my pets, and family I thought I could trust.

My dad loves wasps and black hornets and yellow jackets over family. I’ve been wrongly accused of destroying nests (believe me after being stung so many times I would have gladly destroyed them) but I didn’t. He’s so fucking insane. My ma won’t kick the crazy fuck out and plays victim.

I’m tired of the game. I pay the taxes on the property, run errands to mail and store but I’m banished again. My sanity is unraveling. I’m thrown around like trash. Stupid fucking Christian site just says.... Jesus loves you”. I’m like that doesn’t help shit in my reality.

I really don’t know how I haven’t killed myself or others with how much shit has been shoveled on me by my parents. I try and try to help but for all that I end up with insanity.

It’s fucking insane. Karmically you’d think you do good and good comes back rippling, but for me it amplifies to wretchedness, vileness, and the opposite tome... time and time and time again. I swear I should just be vile instead.

My world is very ducked up now.... again. I don’t see the importance in a lot anymore. I’m very very tired...... I so hope my plane crashes into a mountain or something......

[Halaster Blackcloak]

McDeath, don't think that way. We're all like family here, to some degree. I feel the same way about religious sites. If god loves me, let him miracle me the goddamned winning Lottery numbers! That'd be a sign!

But you might want to talk to someone professional who can help you through this. You're tough. You've been thru hell but you've survived. That means you're a survivor. But sometimes it's good to have someone who's trained to help you through tough times like these.

Are you close to your brother? Will that be a better situation? Hopefully so. That'll give you time to get things like finances taken care of and stabilized so that your parents can't be a problem anymore.

Karma? It's not what most people think it is. It's far different than the common understanding of it. But bottom line, by surviving, by keeping on going on, you win. Eventually, things tend to get better. But sometimes they really feel like they take forever. Me, I sometimes think the past 5 years have been more a test of the strength of my spirit than anything else. Perhaps only that. But you can reach a point where you get energy from keeping going on. You realize that you can endure everything life throws at you, and more. And then suddenly your energy starts to come up, your mood improves, etc.

Hang in there. If you need anyone to talk to, we're all here for you!

[McDeath]

More bad news. I got texted my cat passed away. I can’t even bury him. I perform all the funeral rites for my cats I steward and guard.

I have to inform social services of my displacement. I should have an officer check the property as my Pa was threatening so many people including my Ma.

And lastly I can attempt to contact my tribe about my displacement and see if they need a caretaker on any of their many properties. Chances are they will scoff and say NO because I am unqualified. Not like anyone volunteers so they just rot.

Racist neighbor hood here. I never been in a community of 95% blacks. But they glare and from the only other elderly white couple they worry. Suckage. Pity I Don’t look more tribal. Eh.....

[McDeath]

Done most of the calls. I will try application for employment at casino tomorrow. Chances are I will strike out on all this. Been on disability for 21 years.

[Halaster Blackcloak]

Never give up hope. That's the one thing that's always pulled me thru. One of the martial arts Grandmasters I studied with in the 80's always used to say:"Keep going". Sometimes that's all you have, but it works!

[McDeath]

I haven’t called authorities like national security, law enforcement or ASPCA for the animal hoarding and dads threats of harm to people.... yet. I have informed all social services to my predicament. I have been setting up moving to Florence oregon and perhaps employment at the Tribal Casino. If I secure a job I get huge discount on tribal 1 man apartment they have and a space is available. I haven’t been in military for 23 years nor worked any type of w9 employment job since toys r us 22 years ago.

I hate being inside all the time. My options are closing like claustrophobia. Shit daily I have nightmares and anxiety in my brothers house like a prison. I’m still contemplating walking all of oregon on foot as a wanderer and homeless. I have enough military gear but I don’t know how well my back will do after only recovering from 2nd back surgery in 2013 July 1st.

My cat died I was informed just after I left. Now I hear my hoarding mom says I can come back..... fucking tempting except my dad is a total asshole. The house is toxic with 5 open fish tanks that need cleaning all the time as they stink with a hundred fish in each tank. 26 year old Carpet even had been soaked with the stench and debris from so many years. House is what a hoarding nightmare is. I have a “bed” in a corner near all the noisy fish tanks and their motors for water circulation. Doors to house can’t lock and are falling apart. At least the leaky roof was finally repaired. The outside is a mess with all the rusty fences and POW filthy dying geese. Mom sleeps in a room full of parrots, parakeets, birds and a cat box and new kitten (1 year old). My old bed room was turned into a uh “storeroom” but is infected with fleas. 2 ruined vehicles full of wasps and hornets outside...
Mi do have my yurt in the field I created under a tree where my gym is I made. Just recently bought 700 universal gym and 400$ in equipment and 500$ in supplements. Was going to get a rowing machine and new mo3 players this month but now my monthly $$ is fucked. Been dipping into the 5,000$ I saved over a few years that was for property taxes.

I had a routine and was working on getting stronger... it’s up in flames...

Can I even mentally have enough fortitude to work with others? My mind is ripped apart like the warrior struggling in the diablo 2 intro. The rage and hatred burns in my soul and I wish my dad would just die... actually I think the same to my mom as she coddled and protects that abuser.....

43 years of hell and walking on eggshells. The mental abuse is fucking torn my own sanity to shreds. My brother says all three of us siblings suffer PTSD and he’s been in the military for 20 years now retired. My sister and brother don’t know how I could take the mental warfront and my brother says I took the hardest route of the three.

And for what?

[Halaster Blackcloak]

McDeath, what supplements are you taking? I can recommend a bunch of them that are very helpful for stress, energy, etc.

[McDeath]

None now I had to leave home. I was taking superbeets, creative, weight gain muscle protein powders, dr formula top joint and ligament supplements, Carnivora, c4 explosive pre workout, bone broth formula, and scads of other stuff I don’t recall. It was slowly working. I became less tired and endurance increased, losing some fat and muscles were getting more defined but I was exercising 6-14 hours a day if you include field work and biking/walk travel.

[Halaster Blackcloak]

I always recommend curcumin (BCM-95 form), omega-3 fish oil (must be from a good company - Garden of Life, Minami, Life Extension or my favorite, Nordic Naturals), probiotics (there is a specific strain to boost the mood), and B-12 (methylcobalimin form, not cyanocobalimin). All this decreases inflammation, alleviates depression (most of which is caused by brain inflammation) and has a lot of other health benefits.

Bone broth is good, but you have to get a good organic brand. Epic makes great bone broth (and also the best beef jerky foods on the market), so does Kettle & Fire and also Bonafide.

[McDeath]

Yeah, I had actually a group of anti-inflammatories on my list including curcumin. I was taking ginger, garlic, and apple cider vinegar.

[Beowulf]

I take Cayenne and Tumeric with Circumin. Seems to help my old creaky knees quite a bit.

[McDeath]

I decided to help fund a kickstarter as I love coins

https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/19 ... o/comments

[Halaster Blackcloak]

Beowulf, another awesome supplement that can help is a glutathione cream by Apex Energetics called Oxicell (KR-22). It's a highly absorbable form of glutathione, your master anti-oxidant and a supreme anti-inflammatory. They also have a more concentrated version called Super Oxicell (KR-23). It costs a lot more, but still. You rub the cream into your knees and behind the knees and it'll reduce inflammation a lot!

[McDeath]

There seriously needs to be an update on BIP and progress. I'm at a loss at where the project stands atm.

[Halaster Blackcloak]

I'm VERY slowly churning out rooms. Actually, I'm rough drafting what's left, then I'll be fleshing them out. I'm hoping to knock out a few more rooms this week, so hopefully an update is coming soon. We're down to only 20 rooms left out of 200+, so very close now.

[McDeath]

Ah yeah those final stretches. Always seem to last no matter the project.

[Halaster Blackcloak]

If it wasn't for all this mass hysteria and losing my jobs, it would be easier to write. Just hard to relax when in survival/war mode. I'm still trying though. As each room is finished, it feels so much closer.

[McDeath]

Was there an update post lately on UMIII?